Hiatus

Ever have a project or projects you work on and just kinda stop and work on something else for a while even though you love what you do? That’s how I feel about writing. I have so many different stories that I can’t seem to finish, some I might, some a may never touch again. I have all this imagination and i want to share it with the world. Maybe one day I can compile all that I’ve worked on into work story. I would love for the world to be able to buy my books off the shelf and take my work home and relate to it. I know some of my stories aren’t the finest but who has the best work? No one because it all depends on the reader as well as the writer. We all have our passion. I know what stories I want to write but sometimes life gets in the way and you can’t always get the time you need to finish your work. One day I will or at least hope I become the best selling author I want to be. Anyone can make it happen you just have to try and not give up.

What do you do?

Life is so full of many adventures we often get turned in the opposite direction from which we are headed. We strive to stay on the path we want to be on but sometimes life gets in the way and we are forced to search for a different road to get us back on the same path. We all want success and to enjoy life without hassle of the daily struggles. We all want the best in life no matter what it may be. We want to be able to enjoy the fruits of our labor and see our children to grow up to be even more successful than us. Most want to enjoy life by doing what we love career based. One way or another we eventually get to where we want to be once we’ve learned the lessons that life teaches us. Remember you will achieve what you put your heart into.

Haven’t in a while

So I haven’t written a blog in a while it seems and I’ll tell you why. I’ve been focused on honing my skills with yoga and my new job. I’ve gotten better at yoga to the point I can do headstands unassisted by a wall. I have been focused on my balance and breathing and learning each movement as if I were a Buddhist monk. I’ve been opening myself to learning and feeling with each breath during my flows and learning who I am and what I can tolerate. I am stronger than when I started out in Jan. I do yoga almost daily even if it’s just a simple stretching session. Some days I take a night off because it’s been a long day and jbdkmt want to move but that’s a part of human nature. Some days I have to pull myself onto that mat because I feel awful and my head hurts but my heart and soul crave that flow and once I’ve gotten through a session I feel better than when I started. I am falling in love each day with my journey and it is quite the best thing I’ve ever done for myself.

Finding Me

Since birth I’ve struggled with finding myself. During my high school years I thought I had but that was just typical teenager thinking. Then after the birth of my son and a divorce I thought I was on my way to finding myself but unfortunately never could pinpoint who I was. I learned I loved odd things and knew I wanted to be a writer since I was small because I was proud of my creative mind. I tried off and on for years writing books and only wrote half of all things. Music and dancing took hold and I thought that was my muse. While music is still a big part of my life, it’s not exactly my muse. Writing still took hold and still I wrote. I guess that’s why I loved Facebook and wattapp because I could write instead of verbally talk. I learned recently I wasn’t a novel writer, it just wasn’t in the cards for me. I also took up a growing passion for yoga and slowly but surely fell in love with the art as well as Buddhism as the art of yoga is also tired into it. I realized blogging was something I was good at and I’m slowly getting better each day with yoga as it’s giving me confidence in myself and teaching me to work with my mind, body, and soul. My writing is getting noticed and that pleases me as people can relate to what I feel. At the age of 27 I feel I’m starting to see the woman in me that I’ve been waiting to see. I know my likes and dislikes. I know what I want in this world and what I want to leave behind when I die. I know this will change again after I get much older but I’m preparing my body now for the older me to be able to enjoy later on and that’s the gift I want to give my future self.

Centered

I didn’t feel like getting on my yoga mat tonight because I’ve been feeling blah all day so I didn’t get on the mat, I flowed off the mat and put my focus into my balance and my strength and just thought about me and the music I was listening to. I feel better. I feel less blah and I was able to ground myself and become one with myself. I am still just as tired as when I started but I feel tired with a better purpose now. This is why I love yoga.

Tonight I decided to get back on the mat after my initial round because I guess I wasn’t done and worked on my tripod headstand and with patience and focus I was able to lift my hips up and remove my knees from my forearms and almost extended all the way. Despite falling the three times that I did it and I didn’t care that I fell it’s the fact that I had enough strength in my body to support that leg lift and I’m so proud of myself.